I'll Be Brave

It is an honor to be his friend, to be his comfort, to be his reminder that all is well and all shall be well, to be his safe place to land, to be his "I love you", to be his guiding hand, to be his tickle, to be his "Silent Night", to be his one more kiss...one more hug, to be his yes and his no, to be his super hero, to be his wrestling partner, to be his teacher, to be his swing pusher, to be his boo-boo kisser, to be his Momma. My heart feels like it's going to swell so big it won't fit into my chest every time he reaches for my hand or wraps his arms around my neck or puts his hand upon my cheek or when he says "I wish I could be closer to you" and then puts his cheek to my cheek or when I see him being kind...empathetic...giving love to others. This kind of love is greater than anything I could imagine. The overwhelming since of responsibility has, at times, been more than my anxiety ridden soul could bare. But not one day has passed that he hasn't brought overwhelming joy to my life...on the hardest days it may only be for a brief moment...while the best days it is constant and I am filled with gratitude. 

Today while we were talking about a field trip he would be taking with his class to the Christian Care Center, where the residents would be reading to them, we talked about what a gift it is to be able to serve others and to also receive service from others. He talked about how he didn't like the sad faces some of the residents made. He also doesn't like when someone has a boo-boo. We placed the word "uncomfortable" with the feeling and how it can make us nervous. He crawled into my lap for some snuggles. When we were all done he said "I'll be brave." With no prompting from me. With no mention of the word brave from my mouth or his daddy's. He said the most perfect word there is for any day and any moment "brave". My heart melted and I thought "he gets it....he really gets it". We talk about being brave and kind every single day and today he got what that really means. Brave isn't the lack of fear. Being brave is showing up each day, each moment, even when you're scared. Doing what's needed...doing what's necessary...doing what we are pulled to do...even when we are scared...even when we fail...even when we have walked away or said no to the task before...THAT is being brave. 

This too shall pass...all of it...the light and the dark...and when it does I want to look back and say "I was brave". 

So much love,

Cilla

Embrace. Hug. Snuggle. Kiss. Hold. Breathe. Repeat | Lexington, KY Family Lifestyle Photography

If you are an email subscriber, with my little mix up last week somehow my last blog post didn't actually go out to your in box. I'd love for you to see because it was such a fun newborn and family session...full of bed jumping and pancake eating. Click HERE if you'd like to take a peak. 

"Embrace. Hug. Snuggle. Kiss. Hold. Breathe. Repeat." That's what I posted on instagram with one of their images because that's what this family represents to me. Love. They love each tenderly with a sweet embrace. They breathe in life and love. They savor. I don't know how hectic their day to day is, I know it gets busy like all of ours, but I can guess that even in the chaos they make time to love. Not just love as a feeling in their heart, but love as an action...love as a verb. I have photographed their family for four years and every single session, from the beginning, has been complete with savoring, eyes clothes to breathe it all in, hugs and kisses from every single member of the family, all the way down to the littlest...and even the dogs. With all that snuggling, there's still time for lots of laughs, tickles, bed jumping, ring around the roses, and me trying to convince them to have a dance party. 

L & L have this magical way of making a wish. They would turn away from me so I wouldn't hear and then they would clothes their eyes and say their wish out loud before blowing the dandelion. They savor their wishes. It was my favorite moment of the entire session. 

May all your biggest wishes come true, loves. 

So much love to each of you, 

Cilla